Am i qualified?

I am honored to be given this opportunity to go to Haiti on a missions trip. This has been a dream of mine since i first came to Christ. After praying and saying yes to this great adventure, i have never had the attitude that i am going over there to sit in a lawnchair, soak up the sun, and have the vacation mindset!!

Fun, adventure, and experiencing new arenas of life is what i love doing!! i am sure that i will have my full of that, there, but, i believe that God has my heart right, and has since the beginning. All i wanna do is go there, join in on what the Lord is already doing there, be a blessing to HIM, the people i am serving with, and to the haitian people, to the ability that God gives me. This is my desire!!

A co-worker confronted me a few weeks ago. "Chris, you're stupid for going over there!! do you know how dangerous it is there? there is so much to do in the United States, and yet, you'll run to a third world country to help there!!" my response was that, obviously, there is work to do here. I am only going to be there for a week!! by no means, am i trying to runaway from what i am called to do in my own homeland!! whether it's in Haiti, my church, workplace, hometown, or within my own family, i want to love and serve!! especially, in my own family!!

In my day to day frustrations, i am not always the poster child for Christianity in my own home...lol!! wish i was perfect, but, i am not!! my shortcomings have been addressed by own wife, lately, and it hurts!! then the nagging thoughts begin to surface. "Am i qualified for this trip?" "how can someone who struggles in his own marriage be of any use?" "i don't know a lot about the culture and history of Haiti" "how can someone so inconsistent in his faith be taken seriously, over there?" "i'm no master carpenter." "i am so awkward at everything." The list goes on, ad nauseum!! i have to ignore this. God has a different view of me!!

I spend way too much time listening to the whispers of the devil. Rather than listening to the one who loves and adores me, and that is God Almighty!! All he ever does, is love and encourage me. If it wasn't God's will, i wouldn't be going. Bottom line!!